When every thought was captured by fear,
I thought my life was completely worthless,
Day after day darkness chased away hope,
The sick feeling of inconsolable failure,
Churned constantly in my head, never resting,
Sleepless nights followed worry filled days,
Until the day my heart truly broke,
Lying on the floor frozen, broken, nowhere to go.
Everyone tired of my constant lament,
There was no one and no hope left for me,
I was left with my pain,
Made even worse by Contempt’s deceit,
Lie after lie filled with false promise,
Seeking to capture me and drag me down,
False hope followed his arrogant word vomit.
But, I have left hate behind,
His attempts to deceive bounce off me,
My confidence is in God’s mercy,
Forgiveness is the sweet release from failure,
God’s gift to me, when failure bound my life,
When I felt furthest from God; my life a disaster,
I saw my deceitful heart and it’s loneliness,
This is where God found me and brought hope,
At my worst moment within an inch of death,
God reached down and with a gentle touch,
Carried me to the home of the beloved,
Abandoned by hate, brought into Love’s presence,
Help is close by, Fear is waiting for his final defeat.