My first love is always secure,
God’s loyalty protects me daily,
Even when inundated by hate,
He stood by his beloved child.

When my blackest depression,
Surrounded me with its death words,
I had given up all hope,
But, God was listening to my heart,
He never forgot his adored son.

I saw God’s awesome power,
Expressed in holy anger,
The solid wall of hate,
That felt unbreakable,
The words draining my spirit,
To the point of wanting to die,
It all quickly crumbled,
Love wielded all it’s might,
With its holy loving whisper,
Discovering in me all what is good,
And beginning a conversation,
Starting the truth that was always there.

My heart is wide open to God’s call,
He hears my pleas for help,
Condemnation wants me to lay awake,
Adding up my failures over and over,
I want to hear my God’s approval,
Letting me know everything will be ok.

My sleepless nights are a reminder,
Of what injustice can do to loyalty,
But, I desired God above all else,
When I found the deepest pit to fall in,
And the stones kept getting thrown,
You saw my brokenhearted pain,
And, wrapped me in your safe arms.

I have looked contempt in the eyes,
Seen it’s selfish grasping for self importance,
That has no consideration for anyone else,
Havoc abounds for those in his way,
Eager to inflict the final death blow,
On those who dare to speak truth.

God’s word is about to be unleashed,
It will cut off every lie told,
Contempt will die on his own sword,
His lies will become his worst enemies,
When truth has the final word,
My deepest longing is for God’s truth,
That gives me my words for this day.

I have found God’s safe arms,
In the midst of a thousand hurts,
Caused by the painful pricks,
Of the thousands of cheap trinkets,
That I thought were my pleasure.

Temporary satisfactions quickly fade,
When they are faced by truth.
Joy is found with God’s words,
To his beloved child who seeks loyalty.

He found me in my despair,
And, brought me to my deep gladness,
Then I heard Eternity’s words,
Speaking in Love’s whisper,
Words of enduring endearment,
That become my completed joy.

My life is founded on eternal promise,
Despair’s bottomless death spiral,
Is transformed into a path to possibility,
The way imagined from Creation’s beginning,
Finding its fulfillment in a shared love,
Creator and creation exploring love forever

Truth has become fully formed in my life,
Everything that was left behind in success’ rush,
Is replaced by riches that cannot be bankrupted,
My life a testimony to the miracle of restoration,
Those who wanted to take everything left with nothing,
While abundance is the only burden that i carry.

The tears that I cried in my darkest nights,
Have watered the hope seeds sown during my despair,
Now my harvest of faithful love is overflowing,
My soul touched by the love of good friends,
Loyalty the balm for every sad word of betrayal.

Blessed are the souls that cry for the poor,
Those who can forget about self pitying laments,
Those who hold visions of eternity as their guide,
Those who seek goodness in every conversation,
A song will replace the sobs of lost friendships,
Love gathers all my sorrows and transforms each sadness into a blessing
My out of tune voice now singing a beautiful melody of hope.

I am unapologetic for my first love,
My desire for God present in every conversation,
It’s the gift that forms every thought I have,
The reward that concludes the final word,
The beginning and the end of who I am,
Is cherished with Eternal Love’s approval.

I will no longer be bound by selfish intentions,
Instead I am confident to claim all God’s gifts,
Even when hate words are thrown at me,
Help my trust to stand firm despite their anger.

Test my heart this morning Lord,
Bring blessing to my God centred plans,
Help me to cast aside every distraction,
Temptations belonging to this world are obvious,
Open my eyes Lord to their easy deceit,
So that I can choose my God path,
The one that brings my heart to restful peace,
My life centred in faith while surrounded by anxious activity.

In the lonely wastelands of aloneness,
A million barbs painfully forgetting any kindness,
My life a plaything for those who wield power,
Everywhere I look there are painful reminders,
That the hardest battle is always fought within,
Its tumult sweeps over my head swallowing everything,

Healing comes when I let go of my last resort,
Leaving behind my final vestige of shaky trust,
The alpha of this world is the beginning of hope,
Yesterday’s harsh memories dim quickly,
The trap of failure’s repetition released,
When I shift my gaze to what lies ahead,
The way behind is closed forever,
Today and tomorrow’s promise offering hope,
My day begins and ends with celebrating my rescue.

My final thoughts tonight are turned to heaven,
The day is almost completed, tomorrow is yet to arrive,
I long for a life that asks the lasting questions,
Questions like; What can I find that is beautiful here?
Or, What is the gift that is in this conversation?
And, the realisation of how precious is the time that we spend together,
I desire to see in everyone’s eyes their true soul.

I pray that I will resist the temptations of pride,
The arrogance that takes and then repays with vindictive greed,
The one who never has enough,
Talking about love but delivering hate freely,
Mercy poured His healing waters on my life,
My day ending remembering God’s blessing given to me.

Prayer is my safe haven each morning,
This morning I join the faithful choir,
Turning our thoughts firstly to God,
I wait this morning in eager expectation.
For the words that God wants to say to me.

Obedience is my act of faithfulness this morning,
Even though my life is scattered in busy activity,
I bring all my uncertainties about today to Him,
Choosing to stand with those who want this too,
Belonging to those who know their poverty,
Yet are willing to share their Creator’s broken heart.

I pray that I will bring peace to the lives that touch mine today,
I will not be afraid of the thought of rest,
Even though the world demands frantic activity,
I trust my life will be a witness to waiting with God,
My family will be well cared for in the midst of a thousand temptations of selfish desires,
I will love courageously knowing its painful risk,
My gifts given with no reserve, no expectations,
Seeking blessing for all those that I serve,
Come peace today, find a loyal heart this morning.
Amen

When life crowds in to overpower hope,
And, I am frantically seeking my escape route,
I know where to find the help that I need,
I will forget the shallow promises that offer everything but do nothing,
Instead I will remember God’s kind loving words.

He will be with you during your worst days,
When the fog of despair flows in and blocks the view,
During your sleepless nights He will be there too,
When your thoughts won’t stop rushing around,
Their busyness not allowing sleep to bring rest,
Day or night he is waiting to help out,
Always ready to bring calm to a turbulent life.

I shelter in God’s caring gaze,
Knowing that everything that I do and say is cherished,
He doesn’t ever let up in his pursuit of loving me,
Creator of the world focussed on my on my life,
He knows what my heart really belongs to,
Watching and waiting to bless me in all I do.

Deceit is the brick of betrayal forming a fragile foundation,
On which a wall of hate is built on my sorrows,
My cry is to God to help me understand, Why?

God will show the easy path of betrayal it’s fate,
Each lying sharp barb will return to haunt soon enough,
God is with me and we will not give up on truth.

I make my home in a beautiful green field,
Next to the quiet lake that witnesses beautiful sunsets,
When I am surrounded by beauty I am encouraged to seek the beautiful response,
Here I stand with my God,
Sharing the connection that belongs to a trusted friend,
Talking about our love for peace,
He shelters me from the hater’s vicious attacks,
I am ready for anything trusting God for everything.

Gratitude is the first note in my song of happiness,
Eternal love is my wall of sound.
Surrounding me with those who sing and laugh with me,
Eternal love is my song to sing.

When my back was pressed against a wall
that offered no further retreat,
I had no place to go, no friend to rely on,
He offered me a safe haven,
Reaching into my soul parts that ached the most,
Condemnation spat at me at the start of the day,
Despair the parting gift to end work’s agony,
Encouraged to die in my darkest moment,
I was ready to take the most awful of advice,
I believed the lies that confused all truth,
Disorientated by the shifting sands under my feet,
My best defence found in my humiliation,
Left with nothing was the beginning of fresh horizons.

Trust no one but love abundantly,
Is the wisdom that comes from a life shaped by disappointment,
My focus is on Mercy not revenge,
Forgiveness conquers hatred every time,
It’s no easy victory that comes from choosing love first,
The corpse of hatred left to rot on it’s own,
Here I stand a living witness to what love can do.

Rejection was the final straw,
But, also the new beginning,
All my despair wrapped up and tossed away,
A new foundation of hope became my guiding light,
Each day drawing me to new ways to praise.

God’s life touching mine is blessing felt,
All the family are joined as one in this blessing,
We hold our heads high as we walk in step,
Unity is declaration of our shared desire,
To praise God without holding back,
To live life in total abandonment to God,
To love abundantly holding nothing back.