A few days ago Tobi (My son) and I climbed Mt Coolum. He remembered trying to make it to the top when he was much younger but fear overwhelmed him and he didn’t make it.
This time we did make it, easily. The old fears pushed aside to make room for the awesome view that was waiting for us.
CLOSER TO NOW
The edge comes close
Closer to now…
I think of the unnamed fears
Wanting to stay, blinkering
The wide eyed view – waiting
Seen with breathless exhaustion
Brings me close, closer to now.
I think of the unnamed fears
Rushing around my head
Capturing thoughts over and over
In the prison of; What if!
Thinking the worst is yet to come
This downward path of regret
Going deeper into fear’s darkness.
Wanting to stay, blinkering
what could be seen, if
I trust the path upwards
Fear left behind, or a reminder
Where courage was needed
Each step closer, now is waiting.
The wide eyed view – waiting
Isn’t seen if a closed heart
And, vain conceit, stays rooted
Choosing deceitful glimpses up
Through fear tinged eyes,
Not moving – not seeing
What could be, left waiting.
Seen with breathless exhaustion
The view, stretching the endless horizon
Beckons, closer, willing me to see
What lies beyond close, reaching
To something new, awakening,
Slaying old dragons, locked away
Till now, came close, ready to be slain.
The edge comes close, too close
Now, I see what fear tried to hide
The breathless climb, takes me
To where I didn’t want to go, now
Now I am closer, to where I want to be.
